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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: But something about the static truth of numbers hurt my brain. Numbers felt sharp. Words But something about the static truth of numbers hurt my brain. Numbers felt sharp. Words felt elastic and springy. Language had an unpredictable, quicksilver quality, saying one thing but meaning something else, varying from place to place but maintaining (against all evidence) that it was the same language. Thinking about words was ticklish and amusing. It was also easy, as if they fit into slots and patterns prepared for them in my mind. Numbers on the other hand, bounced right out of my mind.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Boyfriends and literature: How can you make a life out of those two things? As Boyfriends and literature: How can you make a life out of those two things? As it turns out, I did; more literature than boyfriends lately, but I guess you can't have everything.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: The world didn't stop because we weren't in it anymore. The world didn't stop because we weren't in it anymore.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: This time I read the title of the painting: Girl Interrupted at Her Music. Interrupted This time I read the title of the painting: Girl Interrupted at Her Music. Interrupted at her music: as my life had been, interrupted in the music of being seventeen, as her life had been, snatched and fixed on canvas: one moment made to stand still and to stand for all the other moments, whatever they would be or might have been. What life can recover from that?
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Insanity comes in two basic varieties: slow and fast. Insanity comes in two basic varieties: slow and fast.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I noticed that some of my deadness was being replaced by an intense feeling about I noticed that some of my deadness was being replaced by an intense feeling about the Greek stories and the Bible stories. They were similar. There was something naked about these stories. Terrible things happened, and then some more terrible things.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl ... interrupted.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Now I was safe, now I was really crazy, and nobody could take me out Now I was safe, now I was really crazy, and nobody could take me out of there.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Like putting a gun in your mouth. But you put it there, you taste it, Like putting a gun in your mouth. But you put it there, you taste it, it's cold and greasy, your finger is on the trigger, and you find that a whole world lies between this moment and the moment you've been planning, when you'll pull the trigger. That world defeats you.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Being crasy doesn't mean to be broken ... It is you and me amplified, Girl, Being crasy doesn't mean to be broken ... It is you and me amplified, Girl, Interrupted
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: There is thought, and then there is thinking about thoughts, and they don't feel the There is thought, and then there is thinking about thoughts, and they don't feel the same. They must reflect quite different aspects of brain function. The point is, the brain talks to itself, and by talking to itself changes its perceptions.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Emptiness and boredom: what a complete understatement. What I felt was complete desolation. Desolation, despair Emptiness and boredom: what a complete understatement. What I felt was complete desolation. Desolation, despair and boredom.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: It's important to cultivate detachment. One way to do this is to practice imagining yourself It's important to cultivate detachment. One way to do this is to practice imagining yourself dead, or in the process of dying. If there's a window, you must imagine your body falling out of that window. If there's a knife, you must imagine the knife piercing your skin. If there's a train coming, you must imagine your torso flattened under its wheels. These excercises are necessary to achieving the proper distance.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: The girl at her music sits in another sort of light,the fitful,overcast light of lie,by The girl at her music sits in another sort of light,the fitful,overcast light of lie,by which we see ourselves and others only imprefectly, and seldom..-Girl,Interrupted
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: It's a mean world," she'd say. She was usually glad enough to be back. "There's It's a mean world," she'd say. She was usually glad enough to be back. "There's nobody to take care of you out there.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Recovered. Had my personality crossed over that border, whatever and wherever it was, to resume Recovered. Had my personality crossed over that border, whatever and wherever it was, to resume life within the confines of normal? Had I stopped arguing with my personality and learned to straddle the line between sane and insane?
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: You have to have a somewhat cold heart to be a writer. You have to have a somewhat cold heart to be a writer.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: You can see why doubting one's own craziness isconsidered a good sign: It's a sort You can see why doubting one's own craziness is
considered a good sign: It's a sort of flailing response by
the second interpreter. What's happening? the second
interpreter is saying. He tells me it's a tiger but I'm not
convinced; maybe there's something wrong with me.
Enough doubt is in there to give "reality" a toehold.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: My chronic feelings of emptiness and boredom came from the fact that I was living My chronic feelings of emptiness and boredom came from the fact that I was living a life based on my incapacities, which were numerous.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: By the time we hit the streets they were silent and closed in on us, By the time we hit the streets they were silent and closed in on us, and they had assumed the Nonchalant Look, an expression that said, I am not a nurse escorting six lunatics to the ice cream parlor. But they were, and we were their six lunatics, so we behaved like lunatics.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Confuse was the nurses' word for abuse. Confuse was the nurses' word for abuse.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: How many girls do you think a seventeen-year-old boy would have to screw to earn How many girls do you think a seventeen-year-old boy would have to screw to earn the label "compulsively promiscuous"? Three? No, not enough. Six? Doubtful. Ten? That sounds more likely. Probably in the fifteen-to-twenty range, would be my guess
if they ever put that label on boys, which I don't recall their doing.
And for seventeen-year-old girls, how many boys?
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I am not a nurse escorting six lunatics to the ice cream parlor. I am not a nurse escorting six lunatics to the ice cream parlor.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Translation: I need to know the particulars of craziness so I can assure myself that Translation: I need to know the particulars of craziness so I can assure myself that I'm not crazy.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: But when they were done, I wondered if there would be a next time. I But when they were done, I wondered if there would be a next time. I felt good. I wasn't dead, yet something was dead. Perhaps I'd managed my peculiar objective of partial suicide. I was lighter, airier than I'd been in years.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Something about the goat dancing made me want to cry. Something about the goat dancing made me want to cry.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: The floor of ice cream parlor bothered me. It was black-and-white checkboard tile, bigger than The floor of ice cream parlor bothered me. It was black-and-white checkboard tile, bigger than supermarket checkboard. If I looked only at a white square, I would be all right, but it was hard to ignore the black squares that surrounded the white ones. The contrast got under my skin. The floor meant yes, no, this, that, up, down, day, night -all the indecisions and opposites that were bad enough in life without having them spelled out for you on the floor.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Whatever we call it - mind, character, soul - we like to think we possess Whatever we call it - mind, character, soul - we like to think we possess something that is greater than the sum of our neurons that 'animates' us.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Now, I would say to myself, you are feeling alienated from people and unlike other Now, I would say to myself, you are feeling alienated from people and unlike other people, therefore you are projecting your discomfort onto them. When you look at a face, you see a blob of rubber because you are worried that your face is a blob of rubber.
This clarity made me able to behave normally, which posed some interesting questions. Was everybody seeing this stuff and acting as though they weren't? Was insanity just a matter of dropping the act? If some people didn't see these things, what was the matter with them? Were they blind or something? These questions had me unsettled.
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Susanna Kaysen Sayings: That's because the analysts are writing about a country they call Mind and the neuroscientists That's because the analysts are writing about a country they call Mind and the neuroscientists are reporting from a country they call Brain.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: When you're sad you need to hear your sorrow structured into sound. When you're sad you need to hear your sorrow structured into sound.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Are you crazy? It's a common phrase, I know. But it means something particular to Are you crazy? It's a common phrase, I know. But it means something particular to me: the tunnels, the security screens, the plastic forks, the shimmering, ever-shifting borderline that like all boundaries beckons and asks to be crossed. I do not want to cross it again.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Actually, it was only part of myself I wanted to kill: the part that wanted Actually, it was only part of myself I wanted to kill: the part that wanted to kill herself, that dragged me into the suicide debate and made every window, kitchen implement, and subway station a rehearsal for tragedy.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Smile and the world smiles with you, cry and you cry alone. Smile and the world smiles with you, cry and you cry alone.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I wasn't convinced I was crazy, though I feared I was. Some people say that I wasn't convinced I was crazy, though I feared I was. Some people say that having any conscious opinion on the matter is a mark of sanity, but I'm not sure that's true. I still think about it. I'll always have to think about it.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Which is worse, overload or underload? Luckily, I never had to choose. One or Pass Which is worse, overload or underload? Luckily, I never had to choose. One or Pass on to where? Back into my cells to lurk like a virus waiting for the next opportunity? Out into the ether of the world to wait for the circumstances that would provoke its reappearance? Endogenous or exogenous, nature or nurture - it's the great mystery of mental illness.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: And it is easy to slip into a parallel universe. There are so many of And it is easy to slip into a parallel universe. There are so many of them: worlds of the insane, the criminal, the crippled, the dying, perhaps of the dead as well. These worlds exist alongside this world and resemble it, but are not in it.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Something had been peeled back, a covering or shell that works to protect us. I Something had been peeled back, a covering or shell that works to protect us. I couldn't decide whether the covering was something on me or something attached to every thing in the world. It didn't matter, really; wherever it had been, it wasn't there anymore.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I would if somebody would want to but of course nobody would want to so I would if somebody would want to but of course nobody would want to so I wouldn't want to force anybody to want to.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Thus, our keepers. As for finders - well, we had to be our own finders. Thus, our keepers. As for finders - well, we had to be our own finders.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: A thought is a hard thing to control. A thought is a hard thing to control.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I wanted to get rid of a certain aspect of my character. I was performing I wanted to get rid of a certain aspect of my character. I was performing a kind of self-abortion with those aspirin. It worked for a while. Then it stopped; but I had no heart to try again.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: One of the great pleasures of mental health (whatever that is) is how much less One of the great pleasures of mental health (whatever that is) is how much less time I have to spend thinking about myself.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Kaysen elaborates through parts of the book on her thoughts about how mental illness is Kaysen elaborates through parts of the book on her thoughts about how mental illness is treated. She explains that families who are willing to pay the rather high costs of hospitalization do so to prove their own sanity. Once one member of the family is hospitalized, it becomes easier for the rest of the family to distance themselves from the problem and to create a clear boundary between the sane and the insane. Recognizing a family member or friend as insane makes others around them, says Kaysen, compare themselves to that individual. Hospitalization allows for distance from this questioning of self that makes us so uncomfortable. Her view that mental illness often includes the entire family means the hospitalized family member becomes an excuse for other family members not to look at their own problems. This explains the willingness to pay the high financial costs of hospitalization.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Viscosity occurs on a cellular level. And so does velocity.In contrast to viscosity's cellular coma, Viscosity occurs on a cellular level. And so does velocity.In contrast to viscosity's cellular coma, velocity endows every platelet and muscle fiber with a mind of its own, a means of knowing and commenting on its own behavior. There is too much perception, and beyond the plethora of perceptions, a plethora of thoughts about the perceptions and about the fact of having perceptions. Digestion could kill you! What I mean is the unceasing awareness of the processes of digestion could exhaust you to death. And digestion is just an involuntary sideline to thinking, which is where the real trouble begins
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Light like this does not exist, but we wish it did. We wish the sun Light like this does not exist, but we wish it did. We wish the sun could make us young and beautiful, we wish our clothes could glisten and ripple against our skins, most of all, we wish that everyone we knew could be brightened simply by our looking at them, as are the maid with the letter and the soldier with the hat.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: It was a spring day, the sort that gives people hope: all soft winds and It was a spring day, the sort that gives people hope: all soft winds and delicate smells of
warm earth. Suicide weather.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: The only way to stay sane is to go a little crazy. The only way to stay sane is to go a little crazy.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: People ask, How did you get in there? What they really want to know is People ask, How did you get in there? What they really want to know is if they are likely to end up in there as well. I can't answer the real question. All I can tell them is, It's easy.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: And in the end, I lost him. I did it on purpose, the way Garance And in the end, I lost him. I did it on purpose, the way Garance lost
Baptiste in the crowd. I needed to be alone, I felt. I wanted to be going on alone to my future.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I had an inspiration once. I woke up one morning and I knew that it I had an inspiration once. I woke up one morning and I knew that it was my task to swallow fifty asprin.It was my task:my job for the day.-17 Girl Interrupted
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: In the parallel universe the laws of physics are suspended.What goes up does not necessarily In the parallel universe the laws of physics are suspended.
What goes up does not necessarily come down, a body at rest does not tend to stay at
rest and not every action can be counted on to provoke an equal and opposite reaction.
Time, 'too, is different. It may run in circles, flow backward, skip about from now to
then. The very arrangement of molecules is fluid: Tables can be clocks, faces,
flowers.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I'm Ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.Do you know what it means ?I I'm Ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Do you know what it means ?
I don't care.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: When digital watches were invented years later they reminded me of five-minute checks. They murdered When digital watches were invented years later they reminded me of five-minute checks. They murdered time in the same way -slowly- chopping off pieces of it and lobbing them into the dustbin with a little click to let you know time was gone. Click, swish, "Checks," swish, click: another five minutes of life down the drain. And spent in this place.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: What does the sign say?" " 'If you lived here, you'd be home now.' " What does the sign say?" " 'If you lived here, you'd be home now.' " She clenched her hands with excitement. "See, every day people will drive past and read that sign and think, 'Yeah, if I lived here I'd be home now,' and I will be home. Motherfuckers.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: The group had an atomic structure: a nucleus of nuts surrounded by darting, nervous nurse-electrons The group had an atomic structure: a nucleus of nuts surrounded by darting, nervous nurse-electrons charged with our protection.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Freedom was the price of privacy. Freedom was the price of privacy.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: She wasn't blotto, she was plotting. She wasn't blotto, she was plotting.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I can honestly say that my misery had been transformed into common unhappiness, so by I can honestly say that my misery had been transformed into common unhappiness, so by Freud's definition I have achieved mental health.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: What is it about meter and cadence and rhythm that makes their makers mad? What is it about meter and cadence and rhythm that makes their makers mad?
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Not everything has a happy ending, and not everything has an ending. Some things just Not everything has a happy ending, and not everything has an ending. Some things just kind of dribble away or cut off abruptly.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Maybe I was just flirting with madness the way I flirted with my teachers and Maybe I was just flirting with madness the way I flirted with my teachers and my classmates.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Imagined my character as a plate or shirt that had been manufactured incorrectly and was Imagined my character as a plate or shirt that had been manufactured incorrectly and was therefore useless.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: With wild eyes that had seen freedom. With wild eyes that had seen freedom.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I told her once I wasn't good at anything. She told me survival is a I told her once I wasn't good at anything. She told me survival is a talent.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: I was trying to explain my situation to myself. My situation was that I was I was trying to explain my situation to myself. My situation was that I was in pain and nobody knew it, even I had trouble knowing it. So I told myself, over and over, You are in pain. It was the only way I could get through to myself. I was demonstrating externally and irrefutably an inward condition.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Scar tissue has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness Scar tissue has no character. It's not like skin. It doesn't show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles. It's like a slip cover. It shields and disguises what's beneath. That's why we grow it; we have something to hide.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Every window in Alcatraz has a view of San Francisco. Every window in Alcatraz has a view of San Francisco.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Mental illness seems to be a communication problem between interpreters one and two. Mental illness seems to be a communication problem between interpreters one and two.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: It's a fairly accurate portrait of me at eighteen, minus a few quirks like reckless It's a fairly accurate portrait of me at eighteen, minus a few quirks like reckless driving and eating binges. It's accurate but it isn't profound.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Once you start parsing a face, it's a peculiar item: squishy, pointy, with lots of Once you start parsing a face, it's a peculiar item: squishy, pointy, with lots of air vents and wet spots.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Viscosity and velocity are opposites, yet they can look the same. Viscosity causes the stillness Viscosity and velocity are opposites, yet they can look the same. Viscosity causes the stillness of
disinclination, velocity causes the stillness of fascination. An observer can't tell if a person is silent and
still because inner life has stalled or because inner life is transfixingly busy.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: She rushed out, because the darkness in the theater was too much when combined with She rushed out, because the darkness in the theater was too much when combined with the darkness in her head .
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: My family had a lot of characteristics - achievements, ambitions, talents, expectations - that all My family had a lot of characteristics - achievements, ambitions, talents, expectations - that all seemed to be recessive in me.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: When I was supposed to be awake, I was asleep. When I was supposed to When I was supposed to be awake, I was asleep. When I was supposed to sleep, I was silent. When a pleasure offered itself to me, I avoided it.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Lunatics are similar to designated hitters. Often an entire family is crazy, but since an Lunatics are similar to designated hitters. Often an entire family is crazy, but since an entire family can't go into the hospital, one person is designated as crazy and goes inside. Then, depending on how the rest of the family is feeling that person is kept inside or snatched out, to prove something about the family's mental health.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Twenty aspirin, a little slit alongside the veins of the arm, maybe even a bad Twenty aspirin, a little slit alongside the veins of the arm, maybe even a bad half hour standing on a roof: We've all had those. And somewhat more dangerous things, like putting a gun in your mouth. But you put it there, you taste it, it's cold and greasy, your finger is on the trigger, and you find that a whole world lies between this moment and the moment you've been planning, when you'll pull the trigger. That world defeats you. You put the gun back in the drawer. You'll have to find another way.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Maybe, there's a moment growing up when something peels back ... Maybe, maybe, we look Maybe, there's a moment growing up when something peels back ... Maybe, maybe, we look for secrets because we can't believe our mind.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Our hospital was famous and housed many great poets and singers. Did the hospital specialize Our hospital was famous and housed many great poets and singers. Did the hospital specialize in poets and singers or was it that poets and singers specialized in madness?
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: For many of us, the hospital was as much a refuge as it was a For many of us, the hospital was as much a refuge as it was a prison. Though we were cut off from the world and all the trouble we enjoyed stirring up out there, we were also cut off from the demands and expectations that had driven us crazy. What could be expected of us now that we were stowed away in a loony bin?
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Don't ask me those questions! Don't ask me what life means or how we know Don't ask me those questions! Don't ask me what life means or how we know reality or why we have to suffer so much. Don't talk about how nothing feels real, how everything is coated with gelatin and shining like oil in the sun. I don't want to hear about the tiger in the corner or the Angel of Death or the phone calls from John the Baptist.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: GoodReads: Do people still ask you about your mental health?Susanna Kaysen: Well, they used to GoodReads: Do people still ask you about your mental health?

Susanna Kaysen: Well, they used to a lot. "Are you still crazy?" was how people put it. And I would say, "Yes, but I'm older, so I'm more used to it." It's familiar. You've been there, you've done that, and it's gone away. I think the fact that you can feel like it's the end of the world and you're going to kill yourself and yet there's some part of you that says "this has happened before." And by the time you get to the point where you can say "this has happened 137 times before," it's better than saying "this has happened four times before." So as you get older, there's a little ironist or cynic or somebody inside you who says, "Yeah, uh-huh. Right, OK, I've heard that, I've heard that.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: The meat was bruised, bleeding, and imprisoned in a tight wrapping. And, though I had The meat was bruised, bleeding, and imprisoned in a tight wrapping. And, though I had a six-month respite from thinking about it, so was I.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: This behavior may ... counteract feelings of'numbness'and depersonalization that aries duriing periods of extreme stress.-153 This behavior may ... counteract feelings of'numbness'and depersonalization that aries duriing periods of extreme stress.-153 Girl,Interrupted
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Crazy isn't being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It's you or me amplified. If Crazy isn't being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It's you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: We say that Columbus discovered America and Newton discovered gravity, as though America and gravity We say that Columbus discovered America and Newton discovered gravity, as though America and gravity weren't there until Columbus and Newton got wind of them.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: As far as I could see, life demanded skills I didn't have. As far as I could see, life demanded skills I didn't have.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: It was my misfortune-or salvation-to be at all times perfectly conscious of my misperceptions of It was my misfortune-or salvation-to be at all times perfectly conscious of my misperceptions of reality.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: The debate was wearing me out. Once you've posed that question, it won't go away. The debate was wearing me out. Once you've posed that question, it won't go away. I think many people kill themselves simply to stop the debate about whether they will or they won't. Anything I thought or did was immediately drawn into the debate. Made a stupid remark - why not kill myself? Missed the bus - better put an end to it all. Even the good got in there. I liked that movie - maybe I shouldn't kill myself.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Disease [is] as one of our languages. Doctors understand what disease has to say about Disease [is] as one of our languages. Doctors understand what disease has to say about itself. It's up to the person with the disease to understand what the disease has to say to her.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: My father was judgmental and kind of mean, and I'm like that. And he was My father was judgmental and kind of mean, and I'm like that. And he was very perfectionistic, and I'm like that. And he was very hard on himself, and I'm like that.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Reality was getting too dense. Reality was getting too dense.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Was I ever crazy? Maybe. Or maybe life is ... Crazy isn't being broken or Was I ever crazy? Maybe. Or maybe life is ... Crazy isn't being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It's you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever. They were not perfect, but they were my friends.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: All my integrity seemed to lie in saying No. All my integrity seemed to lie in saying No.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: You could also "request" to be locked into the seclusion room. Not many people made You could also "request" to be locked into the seclusion room. Not many people made that request. You had to "request" to get out too. A nurse would look through the chicken wire and decide if you were ready to come out. Somewhat like looking at a cake through the glass of the oven door.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: But the fact that I couldn't hold my job was worrisome. I was probably crazy. But the fact that I couldn't hold my job was worrisome. I was probably crazy. I'd been skirting the idea of craziness for a year or two, now I was closing in on it.
Pull yourself together! I told myself. Stop indulging yourself. There's nothing wrong with you. You're just wayward.
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: And this was the main precondition, that anything might be something else. Once I'd accepted And this was the main precondition, that anything might be something else. Once I'd accepted that, it followed that I might be mad, or that someone might think me mad. How could I say for certain that I wasn't, if I couldn't say for certain that a curtain wasn't a mountain range?
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Was everybody seeing this stuff and acting as though they weren't? Was insanity just a Was everybody seeing this stuff and acting as though they weren't? Was insanity just a matter of dropping the act? If some people didn't see these things, what was the matter with them? Were they blind or something?
Susanna Kaysen Sayings: Was insanity just a matter of dropping the act? Was insanity just a matter of dropping the act?